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*after having cleaned off the dust and dirt, Kaleidoscope started wandering around the Ark's surroundings, never really having had the time to explore before. She took her time, at a slow, leisurely pace... simply observing and exploring and learning about her new home. As much as she could learn through observation, that is. Sometimes, she merely sat and watched and listened, in a sort of meditative state for a half-hour or more, before moving on*
*after a couple hours, Kali finally returned to the Ark, making her way down the halls to the lounge. Getting a mug of mid-grade from the dispensers, she moved over to a computer console, searching for and then downloading information on her new beast-mode's form and other related facts (that - to her earlier embarrassment she found she was lacking) onto a datapad. Both in-hand, Kali moved over to one of the lounges sofas, carefully sitting down (it took some creative work to find a position to put her wings in, and sit at, where it wouldn't be uncomfortable). Sipping at the mid-grade, a small smile crossed her face as she began to read the information on the datapad*
*after a couple hours, Kali finally returned to the Ark, making her way down the halls to the lounge. Getting a mug of mid-grade from the dispensers, she moved over to a computer console, searching for and then downloading information on her new beast-mode's form and other related facts (that - to her earlier embarrassment she found she was lacking) onto a datapad. Both in-hand, Kali moved over to one of the lounges sofas, carefully sitting down (it took some creative work to find a position to put her wings in, and sit at, where it wouldn't be uncomfortable). Sipping at the mid-grade, a small smile crossed her face as she began to read the information on the datapad*
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Date: 2006-04-07 06:02 am (UTC)*Shifting to robot mode just before he reaches the door, Tracks enters and heads for the nearest energon dispenser, hardly paying mind to anyone else who might be about. He's not even sure he can handle a simple greeting at this point, much less carry a conversation. Picking up a mug, he gets himself a little low-grade.....*
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Date: 2006-04-08 04:44 pm (UTC).o(By Primus... what has happened? Tracks looks... terrible. Something has gone dreadfully wrong, but what? I can't just ask outright. That would be rude, and an unwelcome intrustion...)
*Biting down on her lower lip faintly, Kali watched him as he poured himself a mug of low grade, before forcing a smile to her face.*
Ah... good afternoon, Tracks. Would you care to join me?
*she gestured to the couch she had been sitting on, optics still locked on him*
.o(...hopefully he'll take the invitation to talk... about anything, if need be. But... ...if he doesn't, I won't press.)
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Date: 2006-04-08 06:49 pm (UTC)[q] I hope my being here didn't interrupt what you were doing, Kali. And...I may not be the best of company right now.
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Date: 2006-04-08 07:56 pm (UTC)[q] You are not interrupting a thing, Tracks. I.. well.. your 'company'...
*she paused again, frowning a little, now, not sure how to address whatever issue was troubling Tracks*
[q] I would... never... I don't want to force myself on you, if you do truly wish to be alone, Tracks. However, if you are not the 'best' company doesn't matter to me. I... I can see that something is wrong; so very wrong. I want to help, however I can. If it's not saying a thing, and leaving you in peace, well... I will respect that. But... I'm worried about you, Tracks.
*she glanced around at the empty lounge, then back at Tracks* [q] I'm here to talk... and listen... whatever I can do. If you wish, we can move to a more private location, so whatever is troubling you won't be overheard...
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Date: 2006-04-09 05:49 am (UTC)[q] I'm...not sure there is anything anyone can do to help. No amount of talk thus far has helped the situation.
*Glancing up at Kali, Tracks lets out a heavy sigh, his misery easily read in his expression.* [q] ...she ran off to be with a Decepticon -- Soundwave, of all mechs. She has resigned from the Autobot army, but...I...cannot accept her choice. Not after all he has done to us as a group...to me. Channel does not seem to realize the possible danger she is putting herself in. Does not realize that she isn't the one who needs to prove herself, but rather...him. Her choice... I cannot readily accept it.
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Date: 2006-04-09 06:04 am (UTC)[s] Whether it helps or not... I'll still be here for you, Tracks...
*at Tracks' explanation, Kali's optics go wide, her colours shifting to startled yellows and greens, then fading into muter, paler shades before slowly drifting back to her regular blue*
[s] Oh, Primus... Tracks. I... I... I don't know what to say. Primus. I hope she'll be all right, but... ...Primus...
*she sat back a little, stunned... then watched Tracks with sympathetic optics, frowning deeply*
.o(You're hurting so much. The pain; I can understand, even if I can't relate. Oh Tracks...)
*frowning, she tightened her grip on his hand, leaning in a little towards him* [s] Tracks... I... I don't know what to say. I don't think there is anything I can say. It... I can only imagine the hurt you must be feeling. I wish there was some way I could help you. Help heal all this, but...
*she trailed off, shaking her head, frowning more. She reached forward with her other hand, to rest it on Tracks' other hand* [s] I can... only hope for her safety... Nothing I say would change her mind; that I know. I'm... not a part of this. It's her choice to make. But... right now... Primus... YOU are the one I'm worried about. The one I want to help. To comfort...
*still sad and unsettled, Kali curled her fingers around Tracks' hands* [q] I feel so helpless. I want to help you, Tracks. I want to help heal this hurt, but... I fear whatever I can offer might only be superficial, or temporary at best. I can... only offer my support, comfort, but... *she trailed off, shaking her head faintly* [q] That can... only patch things, temporarily... It won't solve, or completely heal everything, no matter how much I wish it would.
*She paused again, trembling faintly. She pulled back a little, glancing around cautiously, nervously... before letting go of Tracks' hands, opening her arms a little* [s] But... if all I can do is offer comfort, then... I offer it willingly and without hesitation. My offer for a more private venue still stands. We've been lucky no one seems to be around, yet, but...
...I'll be here for you, if you need me, Tracks. *her voice soft, her colouring fading to a very pale pink*
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Date: 2006-04-10 05:32 am (UTC)[q] I... wouldn't want to take up your time with my problems. And while I would like to get away someplace where I wouldn't have to face up to anyone else...I don't want you to think that you need to go along with me. Misery does love company, but I don't want you to be miserable as well, especially when no amount of discussion can help this, when it's all completely out of our hands. It's just...this feeling of total helplessness. Like I've somehow failed my only kin. I do thank you for your concern and patience, Kali... With Blaster away, there aren't many here I feel I can confide in...
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Date: 2006-04-10 05:39 am (UTC)*still frowning, she stood, offering her hand to Tracks* [s] You haven't failed, Tracks. This... all this... you're not at fault at all. I don't know all the details, but...
*she trailed off, shaking her head* [q] You can always confide in me, Tracks. I want to be there for you whenever you might need me. Shall we head somewhere a little more private, then? *her colouring took on a faint shade of pink again* [s] Y-your quarters, or mine?
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Date: 2006-04-10 06:09 am (UTC)*Glancing around to be sure no one else had come in and seen them, he quickly guided Kali out of the lounge and down the hall towards his quarters....*
*and moving locations within the thread*
Date: 2006-04-10 06:23 am (UTC)*Upon entering, Kali glanced about, her colours still a soft shade of pink, wondering where to sit. She wanted to remain close to Tracks, for support, but the only piece of furniture that would allow them to sit side-by-side was the berth, and her upbringing made her almost instinctively shy away from being that "forward"*
.o(It would be improper... But... Tracks needs some support right now. Some comfort and companionship. I would merely be keeping him company. Sitting by his side. Nothing 'improper' about THAT at all, correct? ... As I said earlier... Primus, it seems so long ago now... That past is long past... I am in a new world. I should... must... move forward)
*she glanced up at Tracks, and smiled shyly, giving his hand a soft squeeze*
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Date: 2006-04-10 06:32 am (UTC)[q] Beast mode...
*Letting go of Kali's hand and shifting down out of robot mode, he tucks his wings in and leaps lightly to the berth, turning around three times before laying down with his head between his paws...*
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Date: 2006-04-10 06:38 am (UTC).o(It's forward of me... bordering on rude and improper, but... Primus! I just want to help him, so much...! It ... hurts. It actually hurts to see him hurting so much. T__T)
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Date: 2006-04-10 06:52 am (UTC)*Exhaling deeply through his intakes, he wonders just when things will start looking up again. Things have been going so very wrong since all the changes hit...and he can't help but wonder if half the problems with Channel could have been avoided if he'd just...done something, said something to her when he first became worried.*
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Date: 2006-04-10 06:59 am (UTC)*pausing to sit on the floor, so she was more comfortable, and could sit for a longer time, she resumed her gentle petting of his back in long, smooth strokes. She was silent, having no idea of what to say*
.o(... I wish I knew what to say. What to do. ... Perhaps... there's nothing I can say. Maybe I don't need to say anything. Just so long as I'm here for him. That's what should be the most important thing, right?)
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Date: 2006-04-10 07:10 am (UTC)[q] ...don't know what I would do without you, Kali. You've been a blessing since the night I first saw you.
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Date: 2006-04-10 07:19 am (UTC)[s] I am just... so very happy to be here for you, Tracks. You have... become so very special to me, too. You've helped to show me that... what I used to think, the way I used to live... some of those beliefs... aren't as important as I thought they were. ... I mean that as a good thing. You've... opened my optics to new ways, new thoughts. You've helped me to open up to others, to ways of life I would never have looked at before and... for that I am grateful. But... more... ... *she blushed a little darker* [s] I'm just so very grateful to have met you.
*she paused in her petting, wanting to say more, but too shy to, yet, her fingers lightly stroking the back of his head* [q] If I'm helping you... however I'm managing it... then I'm happy, Tracks.
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Date: 2006-04-10 07:31 am (UTC)*Turning a little, he pushes his head up under her palm so her hand rests against his forehead, fingers splayed between his ears.* [s] You mean so much to me... Having you here, now, reminds me that no matter how dark things look, there are reasons to keep trying.
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Date: 2006-04-12 01:48 am (UTC)*sliding her arm loosely around Tracks' neck, she leaned down to give him a tender hug* [s] If you would allow me, Tracks, I would like to... be by your side forever. *her colours went a definate pink, there, embarassed at her own 'boldness'* [s] We haven't known each other for so long, but... I know that to be true.
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Date: 2006-04-12 02:52 am (UTC)*Half leaning on her, he shuts his eyes again and simply enjoys the moment, the contact and the quiet. There are still no solutions for what had him so worried, but at least he feels like he's finally hit the calm after the storm.*
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Date: 2006-04-12 03:02 am (UTC)[vs] I love you, Tracks...